New Horizons

when you found the courage to let go of the negativity in your life,

something better always comes your way.

current thoughts

All these thoughts of the future ;
are we even ready yet?

blue skies.

At times when I just feel like giving up, I remember this one quote from "17 Again".

When you're young, everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not, it's only the beginning.

I'm at the beginning right now.
It's hard at times, often I feel frustrated at how things don't work out.
Sometimes, you try your hardest but things just don't work out. And sometimes, it's for the better.
But when I look back to the few recent years I just lived, gosh I lived.
Everytime, before the best moments of my memories, I've always been in a dilemma. Feeling as though I can't work it out, I need to give up for the greater good ?
But things have a funny way of working out, so just keep holding on.
Blue skies are coming.

moving on

and I still sit here, wondering what I should type, what is the right way to phrase my thoughts.
All I can say is, we drifted apart. way, way apart.
I can't say it's totally your fault, or mine but either way, it was going downhill.
You and me, we live in two different worlds. I have wide perspectives on things and often, I go all philosophy on shit and go off the radar.
Sometimes my introvert side gets the best of me and I hibernate for a period of time. and you just don't get that.
You're one dimensional, you state how you feel (often bluntly) and you don't realise the impact of your words.
but you're a good person and i know if you could take back all the hurt, you would do it in a second.
but you can't.
And so, I left. I left in search of people who would accept me, and people I could be with without worrying so much because honestly, I'm always treading in crocodile waters with you. I can never truly be proud of my achievements (i have to downplay everything and i can't even feel happy about what i have achieved and that's honestly pathetic) and honest with my views with you because of how easily offended you are.
and I don't know what I'm trying to achieve by typing this down.
Maybe I just want you to know, you make your own choices in life.
Sometimes you make choices, and sometimes choices make you.
If she makes you happy, go ahead. I wish you the best of luck. She obviously has something I don't, and makes you feel the way I never can.
I just hope you are happy with the choices you are making right now, and may it not cause your raze one day.